Thursday, November 19, 2009
Some big changes are happening for my poor little Cara who is not so little anymore. She will be 4 years old on the 24th of November and it is time to lose the soother or pacifier (for the Americans). I know, I know, she is almost four and it is defiantly time to lose the soother BUT (and it is a big but) Cara has gone through a lot in the past soon to be year and this is very, very hard for me to do to her.
Cara was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes in February of this year, right around that time we where thinking it was time to lose the soother. Since her diagnoses she has been through sooo much and her soother is the one thing that make it ALL better. So how do I, a mother that is unable to help my child when she is in pain and most times the one inflicting the pain, suppose to take something that gives her sooo much comfort away??
This will be night #1 without the soother if she and I make it through, she will get to go to the toy store and pick up a princess toy that is our deal....wish us luck.
I know that it is something that I must do, but I feel soooo mean doing it. This afternoon she missed her nap and was really tired around 4:00pm with a BG of 24.2mmols, she kept asking and asking for her soother I told her that is was lost and that I could not find it, she just cried and cried, "did you find it, did you find it". I felt so bad that I thought maybe I should tell her the truth, it was not lost but she is not able to have it anymore because she is getting older and blah, blah, blah, blah (I think that is what she heard anyways) and she just screamed and screamed for 30 minutes straight then she asked to speak to her father who was at work (like he was going to tell me to give back her soother, it was kinda funny.... the way they think) Chris however was able to calm her down and make the deal, a soother for a princess toy...good thinking dad. BTW I did try that one too but she just screamed in my face!