Friday, February 12, 2010

Dear Type 1 Diabetes

Dear Type 1 Diabetes,

At this time last year you entered our lives. I did not know you and really I had not heard too much about you. You snuck into our lives without notice and lied hiding in wait. Slowly but surely you began to rear your ugly head. You took a 3 year old, active, fun loving, little girl and you made her tired, sluggish and sick. You did not give yourself away too fast, you camouflage yourself so well. You where undetectable to an untrained eye, as you planed the first of what I'm sure were many attacks. Only seeming like a flu that would go away and come back in a few weeks. What I did not know was that this sweet, quiet, shy little girl had an amazing and strong body fighting you every step of the way. You would attack then she would counter, you would attack again and she would match your every step. I really do not know how long this battle went on, but that poor little 3 year old's body just could not keep up with you and on Feb 13th 09 her pancreas was unable to continue this fight. That is when Type 1 diabetes became our new "normal". There was nothing that she could have done, you had consumed her pancreas. You dug your nasty little claws into her and you were not leaving. We do not know where you came from or why you are here but let me tell you something, I will not rest until we find a way to DESTROY you. We will find a cure, but until then you will be fighting me every morning, noon and night. I am the mother of that sweet, amazing, wonderful, brave,tough little girl and you have met your match. I can and I will give Cara everything that she needs to defeat you. You may knock us down but we WILL get right back up and fight you even harder. I will do everything in my power to ensure that you do not take my babes eyes, you will not destroy my little girl's heart, kidneys, or blood vessels and you will not contaminate Cara's feet. I see you now, I know you now and everyday that passes I learn more and more about you. I am watching and I will always be watching and I will be patient and I will wait and I will not give up until we find a cure, we will crush you!!

In extreme hatred

Nicole or better known to you, as Cara's mom



Meri said...

I second that!

It is so true how it just lurked there trying to cause havoc on our lives...thinking it could win.

Good thing we have strong beautiful amazing kids! D had no idea who he was up against!!

Celebrate this day, because you have conquered the dreaded FIRST YEAR. That is an admirable feat in itself. You did it with grace, humor and love.

Hug Cara for me!

Reyna said...

Tears while reading this Nicole...beautifully written.

Congrats on making it through year is a tough one for sure.


Penny said...

Hi Nicole,
Just found your blog. My 3rd child, Gracie, was diagnosed Type 1 on January 9, 2009. She was 6. I totally get what you are saying. It wreaks havoc in everyone's life. I'm also learning to live in this new normal.
I also blog and you can find me over at
Glad to have found you! Cara is a cutie!!!

Lora said...

WOW! I think you just wrote the D-MOM creed.

Have fun this weekend!!!

Wendy said...


Can you believe how far you've come? Look at you!!!! I'm so proud of you...YOU, my friend, are a ROCKSTAR D-MOM!!!

Watch out, D. We're coming to get you...

Nicole said...

Thank you soooo much everyone, Love you all :)

Wendy said...

Enough said!! Big loves to you guys. Did you guys do anything to "celebrate" the 1 year mark?

Nicole said...

yes Wendy, I will share lots of pics with everyone very soon!!

Tamara said...

Very well said. I don't think there is a parent to a type 1 out there that doesn't feel that way.

Tracy said...

Hope you enjoyed your D celebration!

Congrats on a happy and healthy year, with many more to come!

AZMotherOfTwins said...

Nicole - I just found your blog today. I am also a D-Mom of a three yr old little boy. We have been fighting D since November 2008. I read this and cried.... and cried some more. You had put into words EXACTLY what I feel (what most of us do, I am sure) but I had just never been able to express those thoughts myself.
Thank you, Thank you, THANK YOU for sharing!
Donna - mom to Jacob

Nicole said...

Thank you so much for reading Donna, it really does mean so much that people spend their time reading what I'm writing. Thank you for leaving a comment :)