With all these posts going up in the blog-a-sphere about Halloween and D I was saying to myself:
what the hell is going on it's ONLY Halloween
it's not really a big deal,
Cara will be able to have all the fun and excitement and Halloween goodness that comes along only once a year on OCT 31st.
Well I was lying to myself...she is not like my other kids...she will not be able to enjoy the freedom of grabbing a great big hand full of candy and mouwing down seconds from walking in the door on Halloween night. There will be blood sugars to take, there will be tighter limits put on her, there will be fights and screaming and crying when she is told "NO you can't have that piece of candy right now because your blood sugar is just too high" and there will be moments when she is low and she is the only one that can have some candy...it's just the way it is and I need to be honest with myself .
This will be our 2nd Halloween with the big "spooky" D and we made it last year and I know that we will do the same this year... BUT I need to be ready!! I need to draw the line and make up some pre-Halloween rules. Cara is still on MDI (multiply daily injections) and that restricts us, we can't just add insulin when she eats a snack we have times, and limits, and sometimes they don't work out in her favor.
I was just reminded when the kids walked in the door from school with bags of candy that they collected from their wonderful friends...CARA is a SNEAKER and type 1 and MDI and Halloween candy don't mix well at all with this little sneaker. She loves to find a quiet, little hidden oasis with a wonderful treat and eat away...not understand the effects that this HIGH will have on her, just enjoying that pure sense of fulfillment and deliciousness that comes with eating your favorite snack.
Time to make a game plan...and stop the lying :( Good-bye to my happy magical land were D just works with you and not against you.
I will miss you tremendously...until next time