The graphs that we see from the CGM are amazing and very informative...quite mind blowing actually.
|right after dinner and insulin was given|
I could sit and watch it for hours, sooooo cool!!
The sense of security that I feel knowing that if Cara's blood sugar goes too low or too high an alarm will sound...WONDERFUL!
The fact that at any moment I can take a peak and see what direction Cara's blood sugar is heading is just amazing.
I'm so thankful that we have this amazing tool to better Cara's care and help us in her fight to live with type 1 diabetes.
However something is bothering me, something keeps haunting me when seeing this great technology hooked up to my Cara. I don't think that it is a negative thing, it's just something that we have not dealt with yet on our T1 journey.
Cara is and will be attached to a little machine, called a pump for life.
This machine is amazing, doing something that her body can no longer do. Maybe that is were the problem lies. Every time I look at my daughter now, the first thing I see is this little machine. This machine that is working because something in her is not. I love everything this machine does, don't get me wrong. I just don't like the reason why Cara needs to wear this device, and every time I look at her now I feel like it is being thrown in my face. We are still on injections, we have been for almost 2 years now. We take her blood sugar, we eat, we give her insulin and tuck everything away nicely until we need all the "T1" TOOLS again ( I know it really is not that simple but you get what I'm saying). The pump, it is ALWAYS THERE, it is ALWAYS CONNECTED, It is ALWAYS NEEDED and I will have to deal with that...in time!
Understand I'm in NO way saying that we are not going to be pumping as soon as we can. This is in no way saying that I'm not grateful that there is something that can closely do the job of a pancreas that is not doing it's job. It is just something that I have to get use to, something that I have to work through. Soon I know I will look at Cara and see her for the wonderful, brave, adorably funny little girl that she is but right now all I see is that machine.
(I hope I did not offend anyone using the term machine, my husband thought it was a little strong)