I can not believe how critical we are on ourselves. We always seem to put ourselves between a rock and a hard place with no RIGHT answer in sight! What a life a parent of a child who has type 1 diabetes lives...always feeling like you are making the wrong choices.
When Cara was diagnosed with T1 the very first thing that all the nurses and doctors wanted to hit home was Cara is a KID first and then a person with type 1 diabetes. "Let her be a KID"
Looking back, that is just so much easier said then done!
This week is our march break and with 6 kids there was no way that I was keeping them in the house all week long. So who to send away?? This was a huge decision and basically I felt that it just was not fair if I did not send Cara, her turn to do something special has been well over due.
So this week Kylie, Cara and Kirstin will be away at a march break kids camp from 12:00-4:00 everyday. This is a huge step for me and for Cara, as I type this I really can not believe that I'm allowing this to happen. There is no "nurse", no one officially trained to care for Cara, no big sister Kailyn around to solve any problem and NO MOM!! I think I'm going to have a heart attack...like, right now!!
Monday was the first day, we (myself, Kylie, Cara and Kirstin) all arrived a little late because we had lunch right at 12:00 and then insulin therefore there will be no need to train anyone to administer it at camp. I stayed for the whole day on Monday. You didn't think that I would just throw her to the wolfs did you? I did a blood sugar check, showing "L" the women who will be in charge of Cara while she is there how it all works and what to do with the number. We had snack time and I explained everything that I could think of...yes, I'm sure it was quiet overwhelming for poor "L" but she was a trooper!! Everything went very smoothly. Until we got home with a 3.0mmols blood sugar check...an hour of kid yoga really has an effect on blood sugar...no kidding!
Last night I worked on a 4 page document (sorry "L") with the break down of everything, how to read nutrition labels, how to work the meter, what is a low or high bg, the signs and what to do, carb break downs for all the foods that they are offering for snack, a break down of all that is in Cara's D bag and of course every single phone number that they can reach me at because today Cara and "L" are flying solo and I'm dieing over here... and it has only been 30 minutes.
I just hope this turns out O.K.! Fingers and Toes crossed...ugh