Just one more day and so many mixed emotions.
It's that feeling of knowing something big, humongous, ginormous is about to happen. Every time I allow myself to stop and think about what will be taking place in one more day my blood starts to rush, my heart starts to pound, my stomach starts to turn.
I don't want to miss a moment, in one more day we will be living a new life with diabetes. We will be met with new hurdles and we will share new accomplishments. There will once again be many firsts followed by sheer panic and hopefully many firsts followed by pure joy.
It's like being in the middle of a tornado, watching as it all begins to take shape and holding your breath until you know which way the wind will blow.
So many emotions for one more day, the excitement has shadows of fright.
Stress of the unknown: We have been doing this diabetes thing for over two and a half years now and in one more day I will be starting all over again, there are so many unknowns.
Overwhelmed: With one more day approaching there is A Lot to read, A Lot to learn and A Lot do and I feel completely unprepared and overwhelmed.
Excited: I'm so excited for Cara, I'm excited to see the bruises fade, I'm excited for Cara to experience a whole new way of seeing diabetes, I'm excited for her to feel the freedom and I can't wait for her to learn that food and shots don't go hand in hand.
Emotional: In one more day I don't know if I will cry with tears of joy and hope or be crushed by the feeling of nervousness and confusion.
Belief and Strength: I know that in one more day We Can Do This, I know that We Will Do This...I can't wait to get to that point of looking back and saying WE DID THIS!!
Support: I know I have the best support system in all of you and in one more day The DOC will be cheering us on and holding us up along the way.
In one more day, Wednesday July 27th 2011 (also Cody's 3rd birthday) Cara will be pumping saline with her new pink Medtronic Veo pink pump and I'm terrified.
9 comments:
Good luck! I know it's a lot different with a child, but after having D for almost 19 years, I just started pumping on July 1st. It's not scary! I mean, I know everything unknown is kind of scary, but really, this isn't! I love love love it, and the independence it has given me, and since I'm such a technology junkie, it's even cooler. I'm sure Cara will absolutely love her little pink pump more once it's attached, and no more shots so many times a day!
WAHOO!! ONE MORE DAY!!!!
I'm so excited for you. I feel like we've known each other forEVer...like you live just next door or something.
This is very exciting. VERY EXCITING INDEED!
I am SO happy for you!! I remember all those mixed emotions going through my head too. Even with Princess and I had been through it before! It was the fact that each kid is so different, and we were using a different pump. I don't know how long you have to pump with saline but it really does help! It helps you get comfortable with the pump before you put the real stuff in it. Don't worry, you will do great and so will Cara. Pretty soon it will be second nature to you and Cara. I'll be thinking about you tomorrow! So excited for you!!
Tears of excitement and joy for you and your family Nic. If you need ANYTHING...have ANY questions...know I am here for you. xo
I was terrified too, and VERY emotional for the pump transition. But here we are 5 years later, thinking we would freak out if we ever have to go back to shots! Crazy isnt it!? You will do great, blog when you need and we will be there!
How exciting and scary at the same time! It is a whole new world and it will take some getting used to, but it's totally worth it (IMHO). Just go with it and be patient with yourself! :)
How exciting and scary at the same time! It is a whole new world and it will take some getting used to, but it's totally worth it (IMHO). Just go with it and be patient with yourself! :)
TODAY IS THE DAY!!!!
Good luck today... I know you will love this new adventure :)
Let us know how you are doing. You will get the hang of it; be patient; it does take a month or two to get completely comfortable. Your DD will love it as soon as she gets used to it. No more shots! I don't know how we would have managed puberty without the pump. Or sick days, exercise, particularly. The pump was life-changing. And she didn't even mind being on MDI.
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