Just one more day and I will meet a moment in time that I have been working towards for a very long time.
Just one more day and so many mixed emotions.
It's that feeling of knowing something big, humongous, ginormous is about to happen. Every time I allow myself to stop and think about what will be taking place in one more day my blood starts to rush, my heart starts to pound, my stomach starts to turn.
I don't want to miss a moment, in one more day we will be living a new life with diabetes. We will be met with new hurdles and we will share new accomplishments. There will once again be many firsts followed by sheer panic and hopefully many firsts followed by pure joy.
It's like being in the middle of a tornado, watching as it all begins to take shape and holding your breath until you know which way the wind will blow.
So many emotions for one more day, the excitement has shadows of fright.
Stress of the unknown: We have been doing this diabetes thing for over two and a half years now and in one more day I will be starting all over again, there are so many unknowns.
Overwhelmed: With one more day approaching there is A Lot to read, A Lot to learn and A Lot do and I feel completely unprepared and overwhelmed.
Excited: I'm so excited for Cara, I'm excited to see the bruises fade, I'm excited for Cara to experience a whole new way of seeing diabetes, I'm excited for her to feel the freedom and I can't wait for her to learn that food and shots don't go hand in hand.
Emotional: In one more day I don't know if I will cry with tears of joy and hope or be crushed by the feeling of nervousness and confusion.
Belief and Strength: I know that in one more day We Can Do This, I know that We Will Do This...I can't wait to get to that point of looking back and saying WE DID THIS!!
Support: I know I have the best support system in all of you and in one more day The DOC will be cheering us on and holding us up along the way.
In one more day, Wednesday July 27th 2011 (also Cody's 3rd birthday) Cara will be pumping saline with her new pink Medtronic Veo pink pump and I'm terrified.