FIRST I have to say THANK YOU!!
Thank you for watching and supporting, thank you for not judging.
and thank you for being the DOC.
What you saw on my A1C VLOG was tears of frustrations and disappointment.
Frustrations of A1C's always being in the 10's (for like a year) when we work so hard, make so many changes.
Frustration at this ridiculous disease that does not play by any rules.
Disappointment in myself, feeling like I could have done better for Cara somehow, I should have done better for Cara somehow.
I know that I put a lot of hope and expectations into only 1 month of pumping but that is who I truly am. This is how I get through my life.
I'm always HOPEFUL, I'm always EXPECTING the best out of life and out of people.
Sure many times I am let down with reality BUT this is the way I choose to live my life...ALWAYS HOPEFUL AND EXCEPT THE BEST and SOME DAY YOU JUST MIGHT GET IT!!
And believe me I have not lost hope in Cara's pump. We have seen amazing changes in Cara's blood sugar numbers on the pump, as well as a very positive change in Cara's overall happiness with her diabetes. It truly is an amazing tool and we would not have it any other way.
Looking forward to our next A1C in 3 months...I know that we can do this! Maybe I will vlog it ;)
6 comments:
Ours never really changed during the year Roxy was on injections. Our first endo visit after being on the Pod for four months showed only a teeny tiny improvement. Our next endo visit (after 7 months on the Pod), showed a huge improvement! It will happen. I think it just takes time for the cells to regenerate and for the body to get rid of those highly glucosated cells. It'll happen!
You will do this...I love your attitude of HOPE!
I've been thinking about this a lot and remember my husband's endo saying that he doesn't really "trust" an A1C alone because it doesn't account for variability of numbers. in other words he'd rather have somebody with a higher A1c knowing their numbers are pretty even than somebody with a lower A1C whose body is being put through many extreme highs and lows. So, maybe her A1C didn't go down but her amount of variability is improving, maybe with that tweaking that they did the BG #'s will improve along with the tighter variability. I just know that this point is stressed over and over to TJ, his doc just doesn't want somebody feeling like it's okay to be in the 20's and 400's just because that averages out to be a great a1c, kwim?
Have a great weekend, and truly I appreciate your honesty on here.
H.O.P.E.!!!! Never give up!!!
Love to you and yours!
you will reach your goal Nicole!! I know you will! I love your attitude as well about being hopeful and expecting the best out of life...:o)
Love you...
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