Friday, September 16, 2011
FIRST I have to say THANK YOU!!
Thank you for watching and supporting, thank you for not judging.
and thank you for being the DOC.
What you saw on my A1C VLOG was tears of frustrations and disappointment.
Frustrations of A1C's always being in the 10's (for like a year) when we work so hard, make so many changes.
Frustration at this ridiculous disease that does not play by any rules.
Disappointment in myself, feeling like I could have done better for Cara somehow, I should have done better for Cara somehow.
I know that I put a lot of hope and expectations into only 1 month of pumping but that is who I truly am. This is how I get through my life.
I'm always HOPEFUL, I'm always EXPECTING the best out of life and out of people.
Sure many times I am let down with reality BUT this is the way I choose to live my life...ALWAYS HOPEFUL AND EXCEPT THE BEST and SOME DAY YOU JUST MIGHT GET IT!!
And believe me I have not lost hope in Cara's pump. We have seen amazing changes in Cara's blood sugar numbers on the pump, as well as a very positive change in Cara's overall happiness with her diabetes. It truly is an amazing tool and we would not have it any other way.
Looking forward to our next A1C in 3 months...I know that we can do this! Maybe I will vlog it ;)
Posted by Nicole at 10:14 AM