Monday, January 30, 2012
That dreaded month, February is almost among us.
That usually means a wonderful family trip to celebrate All OF OUR hard work ass kicking amazingness dealing with D for one more year. These family trips give us all a break from the every day of diabetes, as much as a vacation can...of course type 1 is with us, it always will be, but it allows D to be slightly less harsh and sucky! It turns something negative into a positive and that is always good to do!
February also means every single damn emotion that I like to hide deep and far will some how make its appearance at some point within this month. I HATE this about February, I could be doing anything...like making lunch for Cody while the kids are at school and I will start to think about what our life was before counting carbs, giving insulin, checking blood sugars, syringes, pumps, insulin, fighting over food, mood swings, highs and lows, ups and downs, hospital/D clinic visits, worrying, worrying and yes, more worrying.
Boy, to think of how easy it was to make a fricken sandwich for goodness sakes...the little things that we all take for granted every day of our lives they seem to hit the hardest this month when you reflect on the impact D has had on them.
The emotions of this month is truly one of the most complicated things to deal with. The mixed emotions can just drive you nuts, you think you are actually going nuts. You grieve but your child is not lost, your happy that your child is alive, healthy and happy but your sad and terrified that D is there every day 24/7 just waiting for the one moment that you might for one second lower your guard, your happy for the amazing people that you have met along this journey, but your heart aches for them knowing what they are going through some days, you are hopeful for the future that one day maybe a cure or amazing technology but the future also brings fear of the unknown and possible fatal complications of this disease.
February 13th will be our 3 year mark living with Type 1 Diabetes, that means Cara will be living with diabetes for half of her life (yup that really hurts too) and this year there will be no family trip. This year we will be focused on moving and a new blog I have started for that journey. Don't worry I will never forget about you my DOC however you may enjoy checking in on us over there once and a while. I'm sure diabetes will make its way into that blog through pictures or clips however the focus with be on making our new house a home.
Check it out and follow us on our journey
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