It is only 9:30 in the A.M. and I already have written it off.
At this point I just want to go back to bed, but I can't :( I have a little guy waiting for me to get out of this funk and get my shit together.
What is on my mind today:
Connor has a project, "Wind Power" and I have no idea what is going on with it and really neither does he. What the hell is up with partner projects at school anyways? This is the second partner project that he was assigned and they really just don't work for a kid with a learning disability. Pure frustration.
The new year has began and I have not yet gotten a 2012 calender and I'm lost. I don't know who is coming and who is going. We pre-paid for a Subway lunch for the 18th and on the 13th my dear Kylie said "mom today we don't need a lunch it's Subway lunch today" Ok then, no lunches needed and at 12:01 I received a phone call " Hello, it's Mrs R from blank blank school, unfortunately today is NOT Subway lunch so Kylie and Connor do not have lunches for today" UGH you have to be kidding me, this is what happens when you listen to a 7 year old!! Luckily my husband was around and he dropped off lunch for the kids.
Today I got a phone at 9:01 "Hello, it's Mrs R from blank blank school, I have Kirstin in the office and she is a little upset because today is pajama day in her class "(she was dressed in "normal" clothes) UGH... you have to be fricken kidding me!! Luckily my husband had not left for work as I ran around looking for clean pajama's which was nearly impossible because for some reason my damn almost new dryer is not heating up and DRYING therefore NOT WORKING. In a family of 8 not having a working dryer is not a good thing. I did finally find a pair but UGH...
and ya I know your thinking it, the school should and probably does have my home phone on speed dial.
To top it all off Kailyn left for school this morning without emptying the dish washer and now I have dishes filling up my counters...which drives me NUTS! I just filled that damn thing yesterday...UGH. My upstairs bathroom smells like wet dog because dumb ass got her leach tangled up under the porch yesterday afternoon and ended up rolling around in the mud which ended up in an impromptu bath for the big hairy mutt. Cody did think that it was funny when Reesey "made it rain" me not so much. The girls decided to play "dress up" last night and now they have clothes on the floor from one end to the other. So I plan to be cleaning ALL day today.
The weeks nonsense is adding up and I'm falling apart.
But even with my whole world falling down in complete chaos around me all I can think of is Cara's damn A1C flying out the window...hurry and shut the F'en window. Her A1C is already in the toilet and now after my post yesterday about the wonderful night she spent the whole day at school high, when she came home she was high and when she went to bed, well a little better but not in rang. Screw the 3 day rule I just can't wait. We added even more insulin to her breakfast and lunch for today in hopes I get some change.
Hope someone out there is having a better day!!
6 comments:
Our house is a bloody mess, but just the upstairs, thank God. Now that thing about spending all day high..... you know by now it happens. Sometimes it happens even with dosing and insulin just doesn't seem to touch it for a while. Doing the best you can; it's not as if you can aggressively dose with this drug unless your DD is spending 24/7 with you and you have the strength to stay up all night. While I'm sure many nights you do it can't be EVERY night. And can't get too aggressive if she is at school or hanging with friends after school either. So, yes, you will have a few bad A1cs; some will be in the toilet. But over the long haul, my guess is most won't be. Over the long haul, you will do just fine. A couple of bad days probably won't hurt; even a couple of months. How do I know this? Because this is the way it is for ALL Type 1s and most of them grow up to do just fine. The adult Type 1s doing so well now, did not have the newer insulins, meters and cgms that we utilize now. So stop with the guilt, take a nap or bubble bath later, relax and shore yourself up for the long haul. And, yes, if it's a choice between rest for you, when you have to stay up all night and a clean house, priorities straight. Let the house go to $$$$. Just take care of yourself and your kids.
Totally get it, thanks and No we did not make changes to "crash" her. We are doing it in small increments and with Cara's safety in mind. Unfortunately we have been fighting highs for few weeks now with only a few in range numbers and I'm feeling frustrated. But I do need to add, cleaning makes my life feel better and in control :) If the house is a mess it seems like everything else is too. I think it is a control thing :) Thanks for your comment!
I hear you Nicole on the house mess! I'm the same way. If the house is not clean, it seems like everything else just goes to pot. An organized house is a happy house.
I'm sorry that Cara's numbers are still flying high. Keep up the great work that you do day in and day out! HUGS!!!!
Nicole, I've said it before, but I swear we live parallel lives! I have had a pain in the neck kind of week too! Hope yours gets better soon (cuz that probably means mine will too ;)
UGH Nicole I am so sorry you had such a rough day! I hear you on the school stuff too...I always feel like we are clueless as to what's going on. I hope your day went ok and BG's came down nicely!
I'm totally ready to scrap the whole week! Break out the wine, baby!
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